If I'm not answering, it must be because I'm living with the baddest babe this side of the inner city! Go ahead and leave a message if you're not too overcome with jealousy! Kthxbai!
[The first rational thing she's done for the past hour is take a step back when Kida comes forward. If the boy could see auras, he would not be anywhere near her right now. Her boots slip on the rubble a little and her hand reaches out to brace herself against the wall. The concrete cracks, but stays in one piece.]
But you wanna see Azula's boobs because they're better than mine. And she's prettier than me. She says she's gonna steal you and you're always hitting on other girls and Lucifer cheated on me with a man and Cyborg cheated on me with that blond hussy and I'm sure Leo was only with me because I can blow up banks with my brain and--
[She finally has to stop. Because she runs out of air completely. Things shake the more worked up she gets and the glowing gets brighter.]
[He moves to get closer but stops when she catches herself on the wall. He can't bring himself to try again when she starts running her mouth. Whether that's because of what she says or because of the shaking is difficult to tell.]
Jinx!
[Shut up. Focus.]
Just how many lists will I have to make before you start to believe them?
[Now that was yelling. Her back hits the wall and she puts her hands on the sides of her head, like she does when she's trying to keep it together. She digs her claws into her scalp and shuts her eyes tight. The dimmer her glowing hands get, the more visible how much she's torn them up on the building is.]
You always throw yourself at every girl you meet! Like you've got some sort of lineup just in case I don't make you happy and I don't know how to make you happy enough to not need that.
[For once, she's actually able to put what she's feeling into words.]
[Still, he can't bring himself to reach her. He's frozen in place by those words because it's always the truth that hurts the worst. At first, that was all any girl he talked to had been. Even Jinx. Another tally on the chalk board, kept in reserve. Because nothing here in Adstring is enough to replace his life back home.
He'd finally given up trying to replace anything. Built something new. But old habits die hard.
Can even his simplest actions cause reactions like this now?
[The sorceress sinks to the ground, back sliding against the remaining wall. Her stick thin limbs curl around her body and she puts her face in her knees. Messy pink tresses mask her expression while her claws still cling to her scalp. Her voice is quiet now. Everything's still.
What does she want him to do?]
Not hit on other girls when you have me. Not cheat on me.
...never leave me. [A quiver runs through her small body.] If we ever start aging--grow up with me. [Her hands fall from her head and she wraps her arms around her legs.]
Fall more in love with me. Make love to me. [A shaky breath.] Make me see what you see in me. Just--stay.
[While she curls into herself, he finally steps up. Finally, perhaps in the coward's way out, he pushes forward to her vulnerable form and curls up next to her, his back against the same wall.]
Is that all?
[His cheek rests on his knees as he watches her; his lips curl into into a small reassuring smile. If he looks relaxed enough, maybe he'll feel relaxed enough.]
Didn't I already say I'm not going anywhere? If that means making it clear that I'm not for sale, then that's what I'll have to do.
[The sorceress lifts her head from her knees slowly, then she looks at the boy with her eyes still glowing that bright neon. At least, now that he's closer and she's calmer, there's a pupil and iris just barely visible behind that display of her powers. It's something that's only visible if someone is dumb enough to get this close to her when she's throwing one of her fits. She just looks so...stressed.
The blood from her torn up knuckles is dripping slowly down her shins.]
If she tries to get you to cheat on me, I will publicly execute her. [The venom has drained from her voice, but the conviction is still there.] You're mine, okay?
[Once again, she buries her face.] Why is this so hard!?
[He's all yours, Jinx. Stop worrying. Stop panicking. It's not working. Her eyes are still glowing, fingertips still sparking, and every so often bits of the rubble shift. But now she has to keep it under control, otherwise her powers would rip through Kida. He has no defenses against her. If she had this kind of anger directed toward him...
The sorceress moves close to him. Very gently, she grabs his arm and puts it around her shoulders. She curls up as much as she can with him, without putting herself in his lap again. A tremor runs through her body.]
You're all I have and she threatened that. I'd rather burn this whole city to the ground than let anyone-- [She bites her tongue. Keep calm.]
[When she guides his arm, he's quick to catch on, squeezing her opposite shoulder. His other hand rises around her front to rest on his wrist. Glowing eyes, bloody hands, jealousy, he tries to encase them all and remind himself of the girl who owns them.]
She's not going to change my mind, no matter what she says.
[What did she say, seems to be the question of the hour.]
[Jinx seethes quietly as he holds onto her. Eventually, her eyes stop glowing. She begins to pick at the tiny bits of concrete stuck in her knuckles. At one point, she opens her mouth like she's going to say something, but decides against it. A few more seconds pass and she says it anyway.]
I want you to know that, after I met you, Lucifer and I didn't... [Expecting him to know what that means, she continues.] And I'd never now that you and I are...
I told him to stop talking to me. [She practically blurts it out.]
[Gently, he lets the side of his forehead rest against hers, though not until the glow fades. When she removes anything from her cuts, he takes it and sets it down on his other side. He's not about to push anything now that she's calmed down, so he's glad when she gets up the nerve to talk on her own. Her choice of confession earns her a small if slightly embarrassed smile.
He's not the type of guy who deserves to hear that.]
[That catches her completely off guard, which means that there's no way to hold back the loud snort that escapes her. She clamps a bloody hand down on her mouth in an attempt not to laugh. Emotionally drained means emotionally stupid, and she has to bury her face on Kida's shoulder.
Then she nods.]
You just can't compare to the Devil's tits. [She was upset, jealous, so angry she couldn't think, and now she's just losing it after that sentence actually leaves her mouth.] His vessel just really needs to lay off the demon blood and peanut butter sandwiches.
[Continued snickers. Remember to breathe, girl. She releases an amused sigh.]
I can't tell you how...nice it is to be with someone mortal. You're not constantly judging me for having to go to the bathroom or needing to breathe. You sleep. [She nuzzles her forehead against his shoulder, feeling drained.] You're warm. You have a heartbeat. You don't have a creepy, incestuous relationship with your older brother. [A pause.] I'm assuming.
[It's more than a little strange, and very striking, to have someone revel in the fact that Masaomi is a human being. That is generally the most basic criteria. Kind of like having someone walk up to you and say, "You're breathing. Let's make out." But the way she expresses it, tired yet so sincere, resting on his shoulder while he grips hers, has him wondering just what it would be like to date someone who doesn't need to do... any of that.
And then she says four little words. Four little words that remind him of a tense talk with one Hino Rei and an act witnessed over a public feed. His hold over her shoulder tightens, and his reply is firm, pronounced.]
I would never, ever hit you.
[He doubts it would hurt even if he did, but that doesn't change a thing. Nobody is ever going to hurt her again, if he can help it. And that includes himself.]
[The sorceress curls up into him more, a sick feeling in the pit of her stomach. For the moment she's quiet. Very quiet. Her eyes clench shut.]
You're so nice to me. [She swallows down that lump in her throat.] No one's ever been this nice to me. You don't wanna hurt me, you don't wanna use me, you put up with me--I've never met anyone like you and I don't deserve you.
[No jokes. No insults. Just an 18-year-old girl who's never had someone she could honestly confide in. Not a day in her life.] But I'm too selfish to let anyone else have you.
[If the situation had been any less serious, he may have tried to laugh things off again. "That's love for you. Turns normal people crazy, and crazy people crazier!" But right now, he can't. Not with Jinx so subdued and insecure, not after she dropped that bomb of her own choice. Whenever she gets to praising him like this, it can be difficult to take, but Jinx is more important that some stupid complex of his own making.
Especially if she just demolished most of a building because he's too friendly with other girls.
Releasing her shoulder, he moves his hand up to run his fingers through her hair.]
Jinx, try and remember who you're talking to over here. [Only mildly self-depreciating. He is the idiot high school kid with nothing but a knife collection and bad aim with which to protect himself or anyone else.] If anyone is putting up with anyone, it's the other way around.
[The sorceress seems to relax as his fingers comb her hair. Her voice quiets as she answers him, brutally honest.]
Someone prettier. Someone dumber. Someone who won't get you killed. [She looks up at him, stressed and guilty.] I don't "put up" with you, stupid.
Remember the first time we met in person? Chef Boyardee? [Her lips twitch with what could have been a smile.] I didn't even know you, but if you'd asked me to stay? I don't think I would've left.
[She flexes her hands, cracking apart thin layers of fresh scabs. New blood seeps up over dried blood and dirt. Time and time again she gives him ways out, but he never takes them. She pushes and pulls him and he just seems to like her more.]
That's not good enough. [She takes her hair away from him, pulling it over one shoulder and smearing it red.] I want you to know, not think. I want everyone to know. If I'm really number one in your life, then I wanna feel like it.
[With his touch duly shunned, he drops his hand into his lap. If she doesn't want him messing with her hair, she's not going to want him checking out scrapes. The boy remains that way for a short while after she finishes, admittedly dampened. He thought he had been treating her like number one, but this entire spectacle seems to be proving otherwise. When will his move finally be the right one?
After a moment, he pushes himself to his feet. The fact that he brushes the dirt off of his butt in front of her may or may not be a purposeful gesture.
One step, two steps, three steps forward. Then he halts, takes a deep breath, cups his hands to his mouth, and shouts at the top of his lungs.]
JINX IS MY ONE AND ONLY GIRLFRIEND, AND IF ANYONE ELSE EVER LAYS A HAND ON HER, I'LL SEND THEM FLYING INTO THE PACIFIC!
[He's quiet and it unnerves her. It always does. Ever since they lived together, she's come to understand that he can't be loud and obnoxious all the time. But when they're talking like this and he shuts down, all she wants to do is curl up into herself until they've both forgotten everything.
When he stands up, she almost does just that. He's going to leave. All the muscles in her body jerk at once as she's about to ungracefully clamber to her feet. Then he stops, she freezes, and he starts yelling.
With the last few words still ringing in the air, the sorceress stands and walks up behind her boyfriend. Only to shove him. Not hard, but enough to know that his romantic display was not at all what she was looking for.]
You're an idiot and my loyalty isn't the one in question here! Were you even listening to me? If anything, I should be screaming threats about--oh wait. [She motions to the house she recently demolished.] I did!
[He catches his balance just as he loses it, certainly not injured by the shove but definitely bothered by it. Teeth clench as his whole body tenses, and he throws out an arm for emphasis.]
I'm not questioning anything! Except maybe my ability not to screw up today! Apparently that's out of order right now.
[Deep breaths, Masaomi. Again, hands fall listlessly to his sides, shoulders slumping. It's difficult to remember sometimes that he's just lucky it was a house and not him.]
I can't make you feel anything, Jinx. You don't make it easy to even try. But I want to. I wouldn't be here if I didn't.
[Yelling, fighting, and hurting people. This is what she's good at. Doing this with Kida is terrifying, because losing him is losing the biggest gamble of her life. She's frustrated that she can't seem to get things out in a way he'll understand. This needs to diffuse and it needs to fast.
Then he says something that makes her so exasperated her head hurts.]
Are you for serious right now? [She stares at him, confounded, before she explodes.] You make me feel everything! I don't even recognize myself when I'm with you! I don't smile. I don't giggle or--or trip up. I don't love people, okay!? But I love you!
Do you understand what that means to me? Because of all the things you make me feel, I rearranged my whole life! I don't have friends, I'm vulnerable, I'm so sexually frustrated I could kill myself, and it's all because you came outta the blue and made me fall for you.
[Wrap it up, Jinx. Think of that one good line. She takes a deep breath then manages two more sentences.]
So don't you dare make all of this not worth it for me because you like flirting! I need commitment and I deserve it.
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But you wanna see Azula's boobs because they're better than mine. And she's prettier than me. She says she's gonna steal you and you're always hitting on other girls and Lucifer cheated on me with a man and Cyborg cheated on me with that blond hussy and I'm sure Leo was only with me because I can blow up banks with my brain and--
[She finally has to stop. Because she runs out of air completely. Things shake the more worked up she gets and the glowing gets brighter.]
call;
Jinx!
[Shut up. Focus.]
Just how many lists will I have to make before you start to believe them?
call;
[Now that was yelling. Her back hits the wall and she puts her hands on the sides of her head, like she does when she's trying to keep it together. She digs her claws into her scalp and shuts her eyes tight. The dimmer her glowing hands get, the more visible how much she's torn them up on the building is.]
You always throw yourself at every girl you meet! Like you've got some sort of lineup just in case I don't make you happy and I don't know how to make you happy enough to not need that.
[For once, she's actually able to put what she's feeling into words.]
call;
He'd finally given up trying to replace anything. Built something new. But old habits die hard.
Can even his simplest actions cause reactions like this now?
Another small step forward.]
No one could replace you, Jinx. Not for me.
What do you want me to do?
call;
What does she want him to do?]
Not hit on other girls when you have me. Not cheat on me.
...never leave me. [A quiver runs through her small body.] If we ever start aging--grow up with me. [Her hands fall from her head and she wraps her arms around her legs.]
Fall more in love with me. Make love to me. [A shaky breath.] Make me see what you see in me. Just--stay.
call;
Is that all?
[His cheek rests on his knees as he watches her; his lips curl into into a small reassuring smile. If he looks relaxed enough, maybe he'll feel relaxed enough.]
Didn't I already say I'm not going anywhere? If that means making it clear that I'm not for sale, then that's what I'll have to do.
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The blood from her torn up knuckles is dripping slowly down her shins.]
If she tries to get you to cheat on me, I will publicly execute her. [The venom has drained from her voice, but the conviction is still there.] You're mine, okay?
[Once again, she buries her face.] Why is this so hard!?
call;
You're asking me?
[But after a moment, he sighs, smile gone.]
She won't do anything like that. I promise. I'm all yours.
call;
The sorceress moves close to him. Very gently, she grabs his arm and puts it around her shoulders. She curls up as much as she can with him, without putting herself in his lap again. A tremor runs through her body.]
You're all I have and she threatened that. I'd rather burn this whole city to the ground than let anyone-- [She bites her tongue. Keep calm.]
I hate her.
call;
She's not going to change my mind, no matter what she says.
[What did she say, seems to be the question of the hour.]
So we can avoid burning things until later.
call;
I want you to know that, after I met you, Lucifer and I didn't... [Expecting him to know what that means, she continues.] And I'd never now that you and I are...
I told him to stop talking to me. [She practically blurts it out.]
call;
He's not the type of guy who deserves to hear that.]
...Were his boobs better too?
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Then she nods.]
You just can't compare to the Devil's tits. [She was upset, jealous, so angry she couldn't think, and now she's just losing it after that sentence actually leaves her mouth.] His vessel just really needs to lay off the demon blood and peanut butter sandwiches.
call;
Oh yeah, I hear that demon blood stuff just blows you right up. Like a balloon. Or two balloons.
call;
[Continued snickers. Remember to breathe, girl. She releases an amused sigh.]
I can't tell you how...nice it is to be with someone mortal. You're not constantly judging me for having to go to the bathroom or needing to breathe. You sleep. [She nuzzles her forehead against his shoulder, feeling drained.] You're warm. You have a heartbeat. You don't have a creepy, incestuous relationship with your older brother. [A pause.] I'm assuming.
[Quieter, she adds:] You don't hit me.
call;
And then she says four little words. Four little words that remind him of a tense talk with one Hino Rei and an act witnessed over a public feed. His hold over her shoulder tightens, and his reply is firm, pronounced.]
I would never, ever hit you.
[He doubts it would hurt even if he did, but that doesn't change a thing. Nobody is ever going to hurt her again, if he can help it. And that includes himself.]
call;
You're so nice to me. [She swallows down that lump in her throat.] No one's ever been this nice to me. You don't wanna hurt me, you don't wanna use me, you put up with me--I've never met anyone like you and I don't deserve you.
[No jokes. No insults. Just an 18-year-old girl who's never had someone she could honestly confide in. Not a day in her life.] But I'm too selfish to let anyone else have you.
call;
Especially if she just demolished most of a building because he's too friendly with other girls.
Releasing her shoulder, he moves his hand up to run his fingers through her hair.]
Jinx, try and remember who you're talking to over here. [Only mildly self-depreciating. He is the idiot high school kid with nothing but a knife collection and bad aim with which to protect himself or anyone else.] If anyone is putting up with anyone, it's the other way around.
Really. If you don't deserve me, then who does?
call;
Someone prettier. Someone dumber. Someone who won't get you killed. [She looks up at him, stressed and guilty.] I don't "put up" with you, stupid.
Remember the first time we met in person? Chef Boyardee? [Her lips twitch with what could have been a smile.] I didn't even know you, but if you'd asked me to stay? I don't think I would've left.
You're it, loverboy. You're all I've got.
call;
[Because if they can't manage to get him killed, clearly they're unproductive.
He chuckles quiet and tired as wandering fingers curl strands of her hair.]
I'm a big loverboy. I can choose my own preferences. And, you know, I think I'm pretty attached to pink on gray.
call;
That's not good enough. [She takes her hair away from him, pulling it over one shoulder and smearing it red.] I want you to know, not think. I want everyone to know. If I'm really number one in your life, then I wanna feel like it.
[Hot and cold.]
call;
After a moment, he pushes himself to his feet. The fact that he brushes the dirt off of his butt in front of her may or may not be a purposeful gesture.
One step, two steps, three steps forward. Then he halts, takes a deep breath, cups his hands to his mouth, and shouts at the top of his lungs.]
JINX IS MY ONE AND ONLY GIRLFRIEND, AND IF ANYONE ELSE EVER LAYS A HAND ON HER, I'LL SEND THEM FLYING INTO THE PACIFIC!
call;
When he stands up, she almost does just that. He's going to leave. All the muscles in her body jerk at once as she's about to ungracefully clamber to her feet. Then he stops, she freezes, and he starts yelling.
With the last few words still ringing in the air, the sorceress stands and walks up behind her boyfriend. Only to shove him. Not hard, but enough to know that his romantic display was not at all what she was looking for.]
You're an idiot and my loyalty isn't the one in question here! Were you even listening to me? If anything, I should be screaming threats about--oh wait. [She motions to the house she recently demolished.] I did!
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I'm not questioning anything! Except maybe my ability not to screw up today! Apparently that's out of order right now.
[Deep breaths, Masaomi. Again, hands fall listlessly to his sides, shoulders slumping. It's difficult to remember sometimes that he's just lucky it was a house and not him.]
I can't make you feel anything, Jinx. You don't make it easy to even try. But I want to. I wouldn't be here if I didn't.
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Then he says something that makes her so exasperated her head hurts.]
Are you for serious right now? [She stares at him, confounded, before she explodes.] You make me feel everything! I don't even recognize myself when I'm with you! I don't smile. I don't giggle or--or trip up. I don't love people, okay!? But I love you!
Do you understand what that means to me? Because of all the things you make me feel, I rearranged my whole life! I don't have friends, I'm vulnerable, I'm so sexually frustrated I could kill myself, and it's all because you came outta the blue and made me fall for you.
[Wrap it up, Jinx. Think of that one good line. She takes a deep breath then manages two more sentences.]
So don't you dare make all of this not worth it for me because you like flirting! I need commitment and I deserve it.
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