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mellowyellow) wrote2012-07-24 06:14 pm
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Character
Name: Masaomi Kida
Canon: Durarara!!
Age: 16
History: DRRR!! wiki
Reason for Playing: Player-caused tragedy. Horada panics and shoots when Anri, Mikado, and Celty interrupt Masaomi's execution. Mikado goes down, and Masaomi follows after a proper rampage. When Masaomi comes to in the hospital, Mikado's parents have arrived and inform him his best friend is now paralyzed because of his actions. Saki shows him RECOVERjoy's ad the next day.
Personality: Masaomi Kida is quite the catch, if you can get past all the reasons he isn't. Spoiler alert, there are a lot of reasons.
This particular high school drop out happens to be a notorious(ly bad) flirt, a bit on the obnoxious side, and convinced that his jokes are actually funny. They're not. He's playful to a fault and over-animated, almost too passionate about what he enjoys. A true-blue extrovert who is always the most energized when surrounding himself with people. His favorite past time is to go out on the town and pick up girls, dragging his poor friend Mikado along with him when he can, but despite his big talk, he fails spectacularly at it. Of course, it's hard to get a girl to laugh with you rather than at you when you're flapping your elbows like a chicken.
Somehow though, when it matters most, even these traits can work in his favor. He's sensitive to others' feelings so long as they don't directly concern him and tries hard to make people feel better about themselves. The effort he puts into keeping his friends happy is noticeable despite that it's often disguised as Masaomi's usual antics. In a way, that's all Masaomi's usual antics are. He wants a chance to be the hero, the good guy, a knight for all the princesses of the world. He has a certain charisma, an energy about him that can liven up any party and make anything his own. He can take charge or fool around; he scares away awkward silences and brings people together. All through joking around like a carefree dumbass. One of those people at whom a person can only shake their head and smile fondly while saying, "That's Masaomi for you."
Unfortunately, this too-happy-for-his-own-good image is little more than brightly colored wrapping paper meant to distract from the disappointing contents within. Masaomi doesn't act like a different person or hide his true self. He just conveniently erases large portions of his life, his personality, and his experience from his public persona because he doesn't want to or can't deal with them as he is. Chilling beneath the surface and shaping his otherwise sincere motives is a swirling miasma of guilt, depression, doubt, and self-loathing. It's partly for the benefit of others that he puts up the facade whenever he's with them, and it's partly for himself. He doesn't want anyone to know he's unhappy, especially why he's unhappy.
First and foremost, Masaomi is lonely. He has always been lonely. He often feels as if he has no place in the world, something that probably originated because his parents don't seem to give a rat's ass about him or anything he does. He seeks out others in order to create that elusive place where he can belong, a place he lost when he moved away from Saitama and his friend Mikado. In true Masaomi fashion, however, he has a tendency to search in all the wrong places. Faced with the transition from small town to big city, he dives head first into the thick of things and comes out the other end as the leader of a delinquent gang. After all, why settle for something small? If nobody cares, then he'll make them care. Masaomi isn't a flame, he's a firework! By forming a gang to surround himself with, the young rebel without a cause is able to create that place for himself and even find a girl to share it. Until he loses it all.
Guilt is one of the ultimate motivators. It is certainly one of Masaomi's. He may blame Izaya for what happened, know full well he set it up, had probably always planned it, had gone through with it all just for some kicks and to mess with his head, but none of that shifts an ounce of blame away from Masaomi. Overwhelming guilt quickly spirals into depression, and even as he slowly resolves his worst fears and doubts, he never forgets them. They remind him regularly of the consequences of his actions and of the people he has put in harm's way. These reminders occasionally reek havoc on his decision making skills which are already subpar at best. He takes perceived attacks against friends extremely personally for much the same reason, ever heaping more responsibility on his own shoulders which aren't equipped to handle the weight.
As such, he has an almost inhuman determination, perhaps desperation, not to allow his friends to fall into "the dark side" of the city the way he did. He will evade, lie, act, cheat, betray, kill, and die to make sure it doesn't happen. Nothing makes him angrier, nothing makes him more frightened, than losing it all again. Every transgression made toward them, every subtle sign of discomfort, he wants to change it. He didn't have anyone to hold him back before, and so now he wants to be that person for others who need him. What's grown out of this combination of motives is a fierce but faulty protectiveness. Not a possessiveness, but a strong loyalty and will to preserve the peace he so enjoys, even if his methods mean he may never again be able to experience that peace himself. Whether a person be a friend, an acquaintance, or a member of his gang, he places their safety into his own hands with a firm and steady belief that what they don't know won't hurt them.
This ties into another of Masaomi's coping mechanisms: a type of escapism made possible through intense compartmentalization. When Mikado arrives in Ikebukuro, Masaomi splits his life into two realities, temporarily disregarding the reality of his life with his gang in order to start the reality of his life at Raira Academy. In one reality, he is the amazing best friend of Mikado and Anri and failure flirt extraordinaire; in the other, he will punch an overzealous gang member across the room for not following orders. Each reality is kept completely separate from the other, so when the two worlds start to mix, he does all he can to stop it. His advice to both sides usually consists of "stay away from X," and any further questions will be answered with vague ambiguity or silence before the conversation is steered back to its correct reality. He takes it upon himself to watch out for problems on all sides and react accordingly, without informing those he's trying to protect of his other reality.
How can he tell them, when he's managed to convince himself his friends would hate him for it? He hates himself for it, after all. He hates himself for hiding it, for feeling like he has to hide it, for how he's handled past situations, for repeating the same mistakes. If he can hate himself so thoroughly, how can they not?
If it isn't noticeable enough already, Masaomi has some glaring trust issues. This isn't surprising when even his girlfriend spent a year in the hospital, supposedly unable to walk, when in reality she had recovered long before. He will avoid entrusting his fate to adults in particular so long as he has the choice. They're great for occasional advice, but stick around too long, and they'll betray him eventually. A likely history of parental negligence heaped on top of Izaya's cruel manipulation leaves him unable to count on the older generation to the extent that he doesn't even consider it an option. When faced with dire, suicidal circumstances, he has a ridiculously powerful but kind man towering above him telling him he shouldn't have to kill or die in a place like Tokyo, and instead of ask for help, he smiles and laughs and plays pretend like nothing is wrong until he can get moving again. His problems are his own.
It is, however, possible for Masaomi to enjoy someone's company, love them wholeheartedly, while knowing they are lying to him. Trust is not necessary for him to like someone because if it was, he would have no one to like. (Another example of compartmentalization. Raira!Masaomi is everyone's pal; Yellow Scarves!Masaomi trusts no one.) He ends up allowing others excuses while giving himself no quarter. Anri and Mikado both hide things from him, just as he hides things from them, but he is the one who doubted them and unintentionally dragged them into his mess, so he can't face them anymore.
It's this sort of thinking that brings about moments when he allows himself to brood or be serious. Alone, he has little to distract himself from his thoughts and the claustrophobic atmosphere of the gang-infested city streets. Usually the only person who gets to see this kind of helpless brooding is his girlfriend Saki. When Masaomi Kida gets serious, it's another story. When Masaomi Kida gets serious, he gets serious. And everybody is going to know about it. He is well aware of the horrors of which people are capable, that life is never fair, and despite the cycle of doubt and anxiety that rushes his mind, he can only face his obstacles head on with a deadly glare and a nail puller to the ribs. He didn't gain the respect necessary to lead a gang through pretty words. Despite the silly jokes, the flirting, the insecurity, the guilt - Masaomi is a fighter at the core. He lives to survive, and if someone gets in the way of that, he will mess them up. When something is truly important to him, he won't let go of it so easily, even when it does nothing but hurt.
It's a little selfless, a little selfish, a little sacrificial, and a little self-sabotaging, but in the end, it's just a lot of Masaomi Kida.
Abilities: Does flirting count? No? Oh well. Masaomi has no supernatural or otherwise inhuman abilities, but if you ever see him pick up a crowbar, run like the wind.
Sample: 01, 02, 03
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Character
Name: Masaomi Kida
Canon: Durarara!!
Age: 16
History: DRRR!! wiki
Reason for Playing: Player-caused tragedy. Horada panics and shoots when Anri, Mikado, and Celty interrupt Masaomi's execution. Mikado goes down, and Masaomi follows after a proper rampage. When Masaomi comes to in the hospital, Mikado's parents have arrived and inform him his best friend is now paralyzed because of his actions. Saki shows him RECOVERjoy's ad the next day.
Personality: Masaomi Kida is quite the catch, if you can get past all the reasons he isn't. Spoiler alert, there are a lot of reasons.
This particular high school drop out happens to be a notorious(ly bad) flirt, a bit on the obnoxious side, and convinced that his jokes are actually funny. They're not. He's playful to a fault and over-animated, almost too passionate about what he enjoys. A true-blue extrovert who is always the most energized when surrounding himself with people. His favorite past time is to go out on the town and pick up girls, dragging his poor friend Mikado along with him when he can, but despite his big talk, he fails spectacularly at it. Of course, it's hard to get a girl to laugh with you rather than at you when you're flapping your elbows like a chicken.
Somehow though, when it matters most, even these traits can work in his favor. He's sensitive to others' feelings so long as they don't directly concern him and tries hard to make people feel better about themselves. The effort he puts into keeping his friends happy is noticeable despite that it's often disguised as Masaomi's usual antics. In a way, that's all Masaomi's usual antics are. He wants a chance to be the hero, the good guy, a knight for all the princesses of the world. He has a certain charisma, an energy about him that can liven up any party and make anything his own. He can take charge or fool around; he scares away awkward silences and brings people together. All through joking around like a carefree dumbass. One of those people at whom a person can only shake their head and smile fondly while saying, "That's Masaomi for you."
Unfortunately, this too-happy-for-his-own-good image is little more than brightly colored wrapping paper meant to distract from the disappointing contents within. Masaomi doesn't act like a different person or hide his true self. He just conveniently erases large portions of his life, his personality, and his experience from his public persona because he doesn't want to or can't deal with them as he is. Chilling beneath the surface and shaping his otherwise sincere motives is a swirling miasma of guilt, depression, doubt, and self-loathing. It's partly for the benefit of others that he puts up the facade whenever he's with them, and it's partly for himself. He doesn't want anyone to know he's unhappy, especially why he's unhappy.
First and foremost, Masaomi is lonely. He has always been lonely. He often feels as if he has no place in the world, something that probably originated because his parents don't seem to give a rat's ass about him or anything he does. He seeks out others in order to create that elusive place where he can belong, a place he lost when he moved away from Saitama and his friend Mikado. In true Masaomi fashion, however, he has a tendency to search in all the wrong places. Faced with the transition from small town to big city, he dives head first into the thick of things and comes out the other end as the leader of a delinquent gang. After all, why settle for something small? If nobody cares, then he'll make them care. Masaomi isn't a flame, he's a firework! By forming a gang to surround himself with, the young rebel without a cause is able to create that place for himself and even find a girl to share it. Until he loses it all.
Guilt is one of the ultimate motivators. It is certainly one of Masaomi's. He may blame Izaya for what happened, know full well he set it up, had probably always planned it, had gone through with it all just for some kicks and to mess with his head, but none of that shifts an ounce of blame away from Masaomi. Overwhelming guilt quickly spirals into depression, and even as he slowly resolves his worst fears and doubts, he never forgets them. They remind him regularly of the consequences of his actions and of the people he has put in harm's way. These reminders occasionally reek havoc on his decision making skills which are already subpar at best. He takes perceived attacks against friends extremely personally for much the same reason, ever heaping more responsibility on his own shoulders which aren't equipped to handle the weight.
As such, he has an almost inhuman determination, perhaps desperation, not to allow his friends to fall into "the dark side" of the city the way he did. He will evade, lie, act, cheat, betray, kill, and die to make sure it doesn't happen. Nothing makes him angrier, nothing makes him more frightened, than losing it all again. Every transgression made toward them, every subtle sign of discomfort, he wants to change it. He didn't have anyone to hold him back before, and so now he wants to be that person for others who need him. What's grown out of this combination of motives is a fierce but faulty protectiveness. Not a possessiveness, but a strong loyalty and will to preserve the peace he so enjoys, even if his methods mean he may never again be able to experience that peace himself. Whether a person be a friend, an acquaintance, or a member of his gang, he places their safety into his own hands with a firm and steady belief that what they don't know won't hurt them.
This ties into another of Masaomi's coping mechanisms: a type of escapism made possible through intense compartmentalization. When Mikado arrives in Ikebukuro, Masaomi splits his life into two realities, temporarily disregarding the reality of his life with his gang in order to start the reality of his life at Raira Academy. In one reality, he is the amazing best friend of Mikado and Anri and failure flirt extraordinaire; in the other, he will punch an overzealous gang member across the room for not following orders. Each reality is kept completely separate from the other, so when the two worlds start to mix, he does all he can to stop it. His advice to both sides usually consists of "stay away from X," and any further questions will be answered with vague ambiguity or silence before the conversation is steered back to its correct reality. He takes it upon himself to watch out for problems on all sides and react accordingly, without informing those he's trying to protect of his other reality.
How can he tell them, when he's managed to convince himself his friends would hate him for it? He hates himself for it, after all. He hates himself for hiding it, for feeling like he has to hide it, for how he's handled past situations, for repeating the same mistakes. If he can hate himself so thoroughly, how can they not?
If it isn't noticeable enough already, Masaomi has some glaring trust issues. This isn't surprising when even his girlfriend spent a year in the hospital, supposedly unable to walk, when in reality she had recovered long before. He will avoid entrusting his fate to adults in particular so long as he has the choice. They're great for occasional advice, but stick around too long, and they'll betray him eventually. A likely history of parental negligence heaped on top of Izaya's cruel manipulation leaves him unable to count on the older generation to the extent that he doesn't even consider it an option. When faced with dire, suicidal circumstances, he has a ridiculously powerful but kind man towering above him telling him he shouldn't have to kill or die in a place like Tokyo, and instead of ask for help, he smiles and laughs and plays pretend like nothing is wrong until he can get moving again. His problems are his own.
It is, however, possible for Masaomi to enjoy someone's company, love them wholeheartedly, while knowing they are lying to him. Trust is not necessary for him to like someone because if it was, he would have no one to like. (Another example of compartmentalization. Raira!Masaomi is everyone's pal; Yellow Scarves!Masaomi trusts no one.) He ends up allowing others excuses while giving himself no quarter. Anri and Mikado both hide things from him, just as he hides things from them, but he is the one who doubted them and unintentionally dragged them into his mess, so he can't face them anymore.
It's this sort of thinking that brings about moments when he allows himself to brood or be serious. Alone, he has little to distract himself from his thoughts and the claustrophobic atmosphere of the gang-infested city streets. Usually the only person who gets to see this kind of helpless brooding is his girlfriend Saki. When Masaomi Kida gets serious, it's another story. When Masaomi Kida gets serious, he gets serious. And everybody is going to know about it. He is well aware of the horrors of which people are capable, that life is never fair, and despite the cycle of doubt and anxiety that rushes his mind, he can only face his obstacles head on with a deadly glare and a nail puller to the ribs. He didn't gain the respect necessary to lead a gang through pretty words. Despite the silly jokes, the flirting, the insecurity, the guilt - Masaomi is a fighter at the core. He lives to survive, and if someone gets in the way of that, he will mess them up. When something is truly important to him, he won't let go of it so easily, even when it does nothing but hurt.
It's a little selfless, a little selfish, a little sacrificial, and a little self-sabotaging, but in the end, it's just a lot of Masaomi Kida.
Abilities: Does flirting count? No? Oh well. Masaomi has no supernatural or otherwise inhuman abilities, but if you ever see him pick up a crowbar, run like the wind.
Sample: 01, 02, 03